i see ...

he whispers "you're absolutely perfect" ...
i look him in the eye .. and i see truth .. i see love .. i see someone who goes the extra mile .. just for me .. i see a long lasting relationship and magical moments... like this one. i see my insecurities dissapear when i'm with him .. i see safety in his embrace .. i see life .. happiness to the fullest .. I see perfection .. in him .
i tear up a little .
.. i am in love .

simple .

i sit in the tall grass and strum on my six string ..
i am alone this evening .. at peace with the world .. the sun is warm on my face .. i face the river.
i pluck at the old strings .. i watch the minoes ..
i hear foot steps .. i turn around .. look .. and i see my best friend.. a yellow lab .. Dakota .
he slowly walks over .. licks my arm and walks down to the water ..
i pluck at my guitar .
the minoes circle his legs .. he snaps at them, causing me to smile .
he lays beside me and falls asleep ..
.. i strum a g chord .. pluck ..
smile ..
the sun begins to set .. red and orange spill accross the sky in slow motion .
fading to pink ..a couple stars poke out as the sky at last turns navy blue ..
i sit in silence .. Dakota asleep by my side ..
i watch the stars slowly come into site ..
... a shooting star soars accross the sky ..
i make a wish .. smile .. and then we head back to the house .

this is how i feel ..

i am at peace with myself ..
i'm not angry with myself i'm not upset. I feel calm, collected, and connected with my emotions.
i feel sad .. not in a crying kind of way ..but in a way that i am content .
all i hear is soft sad music ..
the world seems grey .. there are no vibrant colours ..
this world is cold .. but i dont mind .. i get lost in the beauty of sadness .
i dont want to be seen ... i want to go unnoticed .. i like it that way .
walk through this world as if i were invisible ..
i'm content with this loneliness .

thoughts

my body is spread out accross these blankets which i use to sleep on .. but not tonight. Tonight sleep will not bless me with its presence. so i lay awake . hour after hour. too exhausted to move. so i let the darkness cover me. lift me away out of reality. Into my thoughts . Thoughts of yesterday when we layed in the fields of green, when i was in your arms, when nothing mattered but us. thoughts move on to tomorrow .. what will happen tomorrow ? will you be there ? will you be close enough .. or will i lose you ? i'm frightened to think of what life would be like without you .. i try not to think about it .. it hurts too much .. it may sound stupid .. i may sound like a silly teenager unsure of her feelings .. but the way i feel for you is real . i could lose you easily .. so i promise i will not take you for granted ... i will love every minute .. and i will try to be perfect .. because you deserve perfection.. i'm far from it .. but the effort is worth every minute with you .. my thoughts scatter and i think of right now .. i can hear the rain .. as it pounds against the cement .. i can smell the rainkissed leaves with my face on the pillow beside the open window ..i can feel the cool air .. a breeze on my fevered skin .. i don't want to come back to reality .. i want to stay in my thoughts forever .. reality is painful .. but its real .. and i am only human .

my inspiration

i have this friend .
He wrote a poem on his blog which inspired me to create my own and show my poetry to the world . This friend of mine inspired me to write more of my poetry . To show my perspective of the world through poetry .
inspiration is a very strong thing . when i get inspired its like theres a flame in my heart and the only thing that could put that flame out is lack of motivation . but i am motivated to do this .. and keep it up all throughout the summer (: