my best friend .. you are .

my best friend .. you are .
i am broken .. ready to dissapear .. attempting to leave as little memory of myself behind as possible ..
ur average teenager .. i am .. or so youd think ..
but you know better .. you know i have demons i'm trying to defeat .. i'm losing .
i'm too weak .. to small compared to the pain of the past .. too hurt ..
you hold me in your arms and i feel safe .. i want to cry but i dont dare show my weakness .. but i know you can feel it ..
i dont dare share my burden with you ... but i want to .. i tell you of the past ..
but the details .. i could never let those demons escape through my words ..
you can feel my pain .. see it in my eyes .. you can read me like a book ..
i've know you for soo long .. spent all of my school years in your classes ..
and i want to share this broken part of me with you .. i trust you with my life .. with my soul ..and now you know my secrets ..the reason for my fears ..
kisses on the fourhead on the cheek on the lips .. show me that you care .. about me .. about my well being ..
we could never be together .. you are my best friend ..
words as soft and comforting as a fluffly blanket ..
you make me feel human .. you make me feel real .. like a normal individual ..
time spent with you is time spent in reality .
and i love you for that ..
my best friend .. you are .